The Dark Life

We always thought of a life that would be a fun flip side both a ways. But its not always be the same u want.

I always wonder what people called a perfect life? Having a happy family, fullfilled with all the desire? Achieving an aim full of compromises? What?

Something to talk about my life- don't know how to start?? so many question marks so far. 

Since childhood i thought of being a person of my choice, but i never knew i have pay such a cost to be so, where i am rigorously smashing my own ideology that i never wanted to do.At every step of my life i have lost something or the other.Something with what i can associate myself forcefully taken out of my life. When i started loving life rather started loving somebody, i put everything to it but at the end of the day got messed up in a trio and again a question mark appeared ?????????? I decided to walk out of that situation and compromised my feelings about the same. When i again started to live once again out all those problems and situations, my past came and stood in front of me asking for a begging. But begging for what ????? again question mark. Seems like a puzzle game whose 1 part is missing and cannot be completed anyhow. When i stepped into a professional career, thought will go every extend to prove myself and avoid all those snag and make the impossible possible. But coming to the professional world and after looking forward to all the scenario and the work ratio everything started becoming bleak, still waiting for the moment where i can enhance my skill set and get my self stuck up with lot of work.But still i am comprising my instinct on almost every ground.(lets hope for the best) Don't know what is the in kitty still. 

Its been dark so far waiting for the light to come and hug me with its spark, with i can match my sparks to become visible in this overcrowded world.